I’m in a bit of a funk here lately. I haven’t listed anything new in my shop and I don’t seem to have anything witty to share with you here. And I’m feeling a little bit ‘o pressure to do so because I have all these new followers from the BSBP! :)
Maybe it’s the winter weather…Or that my wedding planning has just kinda stalled out. It was fun at first but now, eh. I think that I’m really the most worried about finding a dress. Isn’t that supposed to be one of the super fun parts? But that is my biggest fear, that I won’t be able to find one to fit me. Those wedding dresses just don’t look the same on us BB (big and beautiful) gals as they do on everyone else. I’ve been searching online for wedding dresses but I’ve found that the “plus-size models” (notice the quotation marks?) are like, a size 12. That’s so not plus-size. And most sites just have some chic that’s a size 4 modeling a size 20 wedding dress. In my opinion, a plus-size model should be representative of us BB gals, big and beautiful with all their lumps, bumps, curves, with a front butt, add on a few back rolls, and a double chin. But seriously, give me something that I can relate to! Make me feel good about spending hundreds of dollars on one dress for one day. Do you know what I could do in Lane Bryant with all that money?
So, on that note…anyone know of a good way to lose weight? What has worked for you? What has motivated you and kept you motivated? I joined Weight Watchers online but so far I’ve done nothing. I haven’t yet mastered the whole self-accountability thing yet. I’m such a procrastinator so in the back of my head I am still deluding myself that I’ve got plenty ‘o time to lose a lot of weight. The date we have tentatively set is April 2012, so I tell myself that I have a year.
I want to lose this weight, not only for the wedding, but to have a better quality of life….And I refuse to pay a professional photographer $2-$3K for wedding pics that I won’t be able to look at because I don’t like the way I look in them.
I want to be able to walk up stairs without being winded, for the first time, like, ever! Now I’m not talking about going and climbing the Empire State Building without being winded, but just a regular flight of stairs.
I want to be able to ride a roller coaster again. Many pounds ago, my man and I went to the fair. I got on some ride that lifted you up and threw you around a bit. Well, I almost died, not from the ride itself, but the darn seatbelt was so damn tight I almost passed out from asphyxiation.
I want to be able to shop off the sale rack or at the thrift store and get some really cute outfits! Although I do find that no matter what size you are, the really cute, great finds are always someone else's size, not yours, lol.
I want to be able to get on a plane without being embarrassed when I have to ask the flight attendant for a seat extender just so I can buckle my seat belt.
I want to lay on the beach on my honeymoon, sipping pina’ coladas, and feel good about it.
I’m tired of being tired.
I just want to be pretty on my wedding day.